I’m selling the first thing of our baby items that I’ve hung on to for a little over seven years now. The crib mattress is being sold in a few short minutes. I’m going to swing by and pick up a Mr. Clean magic eraser to clean the high chair and then post that next. I’m having heart complications on thinking of selling the jungle theme crib set. Right now it’s in the diaper bag that I carried EVERYWHERE when the kiddos were little. I don’t think I am going to part well with the diaper bags. Those things have been with us non stop up til like last year. They’re pretty handy. I think I’m going to go through some of the clothing that we have in the house and also get rid of the maternity clothing I have now. Oh and I also have a little bouncer chair thing that Macy wasn’t to impressed about. I think I may sell that as well. Why not?

Sigh. If anyone needs baby stuff, I pretty much have neutral things. I have everything but diapers, bottles and now a mattress. I am planning on converting the crib hopefully this week or next week to a fun craft center.

Side note: Toni Braxton is on Bethenny. Eek! :)

I kinda sort of woke the girls up to see the moon last night. :D

I kinda sort of woke the girls up to see the moon last night. :D

I went to my friends house to learn about the products she sells. It Works is the brand. I was unsure about it but still supportive. Well I just may get some vitamins and other things. I’m so impressed! All whole foods, made from actual food like fruit and veggies, non-gmo, full of herbs, has dandelions and other super foods. Oh my cheese and rice. When I get my practice I will have this stuff on the shelf to direct my clients. Also there is a powder mix that I tried today called GREEN. My friend said her grandma with pancreatic cancer has been taking it with out the knowledge of her doctors and has improved so much that the doctors are baffled. My friend is going to go in for her next visit to tell the doctors that it’s the mix full of whole foods and minerals that is killing the cancer cells and boosting her immune system. I was so excited to hear that story because this is a huge reason why I’m going strictly with food/whole food products when I am in my practice. I believe we have all cures at our finger tips, we’re just not educated about them because this world/country is obsessed with ‘quick fixes’ and going along with big corporations. I didn’t really think I’d be so excited about all of this but I really am. :)

I should have went to bed an hour ago, but I was waiting for Arcade Fire to perform at Coachella. I didn’t pay attention that it’s not my time on the schedule. They won’t be on for another two hours from what I am gathering. I guess there’s always tomorrows recordings. Ug. Night y’all.

Who else has been watching Coachella on YouTube this weekend?

Our cat has been so lost and sad this weekend without the girls. Well now they’re home and she’s in complete heaven, running around, playing, even her little face looks happy again. Aw! Just proves who her little owners are I guess. :)

Crazy people in the area

Yesterday we saw a lady talking to a car. She looked rather disappointed while talking to it. I’m not really sure if there was anyone in it or not either way it was funny. A few feet away, we saw a man talking to a brick building. :/ Honestly I kinda felt scared.

Today one of my facebook friends spotted a man in a kilt carrying a stick. A little while later she saw a lady in a bikini wearing extremely short shorts. It’s nice out but not that nice out.

I’m rather confused about the people around here.

Kindergarten Round up today!!!!

We’re very excited! Macy is ecstatic! This child has been waiting for 1 1/2 to two years to go to kindergarten. This way she’ll be closer to her sister and can finally be challenged. Oh my gosh she’s so excited. I always thought I would be sad when they hit this stage but it’s hard when they’re so excited about things like this. :)

Just because we want something badly, doesn’t always mean it’s right, or at least the right time.

We had decided to be done with having babies for now. If it happens in the future obviously it would be a blessing. I’m bummed, for obvious reasons, yet at peace with the decision. We finally both acknowledged that something higher than us, God or the universe, knows something we don’t. It’s always been financial issues or health issues that has came up right when we’re getting ready to get pregnant.

This time around both of us have a horrible feeling that something really bad would happen. I’ve actually have had this feeling since almost day one that we’ve decided to have a third baby, so for five years. But I’ve always tried to shove it away. Ben told me he was practically physically sick with worry which he’s never gotten that way in worrying about us girls or of our pregnancies.

Macy is so worried something is going to happen to me. This whole year she has been clinging to me. It’s now to the point where I can’t even leave the room with out her knowledge and even then it may not be enough. With in a minute she’ll call out for me, then if she can’t hear me or if I don’t respond right away she’ll go mad trying to call for me and find me. Complete panic mode. She’s been telling me that she’s having bad dreams every single night where something happens to me. She either really doesn’t remember or refuses to tell me what she dreams. Every morning when I wake up she’s right next to me. If I wake up when she comes in, usually her screaming mommy then running into bed with me, she’ll wrap my arms around her tight and if I loosen up or make my arms not on her so I won’t hurt her with the weight she’ll grab my arm and put it back in place. Liz woke up an hour ago with a bad dream trying not to cry. She’s on and off asleep on the couch. I would put her back in bed but I have a feeling she’ll wake up and beg to be in my bed. I also told Macy that both of the girls get to spend the weekend with grandma, which they’re always excited about. She begged me to let her stay with me and cried for some time begging and pleading. I asked her if it’s because of her bad dreams. She said yes. I asked her if she feels she needs to protect me. She said yes, then proceeded to beg me to let her stay home with me. I told her I feel the same way about my mommy too. I feel I need to protect her but she really needs to have a break from mommy and spend time with grandma because grandma really misses her. Then I told her all the fun things they do at grandma’s like playing in the garden with the dirt, mud, trucks, and eating fries and ice cream for lunch because Lord knows mommy won’t allow that. She continued to beg to stay with me. I told her I don’t know how Liz would react to her not being there because they’re always together and they’ve never slept with out each other. She said she needs to stay with me and not Liz. Even Liz didn’t react the way she usually does.

I’m really hoping it’s a phase but with everyone worried that something is going to happen, including myself, it’s really freaking me out. I do everything to make sure we’re all safe and I will go to great measures to make sure we are safe. My doubt is all the crazy, careless people around here or on trips we may go to. We’re actually going on a field trip next week, have been making more trips out of town, I go to the college every other week for testing, and have a vacation planned in a few months a ways out, oh and a birthday party to go to a few hours away. I guess something could happen, just like everyone else. We’ve just never had the whole entire family feel the same bad feelings about the same thing. Please pray for us or send us good vibes for a while. Thank you.

Lord please bring peace to our household, especially our little Macy and Elizabeth.

Most people hate winter. I love it because there are hardly any bugs to been seen. Welp, it’s spring now which means it’s nice out which means little discussing things that make me fall over and have heart attacks are out. I found this thing running into the living room almost right next to me. Don’t let the picture fool you. It was huge. WAAAAA! I hate bugs/insects of all kinds. Butterflies are fine, everything else, ew!

Most people hate winter. I love it because there are hardly any bugs to been seen. Welp, it’s spring now which means it’s nice out which means little discussing things that make me fall over and have heart attacks are out. I found this thing running into the living room almost right next to me. Don’t let the picture fool you. It was huge. WAAAAA! I hate bugs/insects of all kinds. Butterflies are fine, everything else, ew!