I have a few demons I deal with. One my past, two all the stupid people in the world/in this area who refuse to learn and be healthy or do good for their family, and a really huge one that I struggle with is all the random people who are not stable in life getting pregnant and treating it like obviously the biggest thing in the world but like everyone should cater to them. Every time I see that someone who is struggling in one way or another, and it’s not small struggles either, and they get pregnant, it just makes me jealous because we’ve been waiting for four, FOUR, years now trying to make sure it is the right time and being responsible. All of these people I get upset over are completely the opposite, I’m not saying that lightly either. We’ve had to wait because we literally couldn’t afford another baby, our vehicles wouldn’t fit three babies in the back seat, our work schedules wouldn’t allow us to do day care-which we’re against, we wouldn’t be able to alternate in watching our babies, we couldn’t afford their schooling, then there were our health issues, surgeries, all the medical bills, blah, blah, blah. I’m sick of people not putting their future babies first. Like I’ve said before, EVERYTHING has been planned out for our future babies, even the room layout for the kids to share a room and what age the baby would in fact share the room with the girls. The girl’s room is double the size in all the new houses that we’ve looked at.
We have the clothes. We’ve been planning a diaper shower for the next baby for months. We know what we need to be prepared for the next baby, we’ve been pricing out schooling for the girls and future baby when they are three. We’re now building a savings account for a fall back plan if things go array. I’ve been thinking of how the kitchen is going to be for when we need the highchair for the next baby. Of course some of these things are a year or so in advance but it’s planned out. Same with the lay out of our room when baby is born. I’ve been thinking of how to drop off and pick up the girls from school with a baby since it would be an April baby. Unless Ben would be able to which right now the schedule would be perfect to be able to drop and pick them up or watch the baby. I’ve been calculating what size of diapers and how many packs we would need for the first half of the year. Same with wipes. We’re starting to figure out what formula to try that is non-gmo. We’ve learned that fluoride water in fact is bad for all people especially babies. We have agreed we are going to take all the classes over again because we want to be prepared. The girls are 22 months, a hour and a few minutes apart. When Macy was born we completely forgot how to do everything. We didn’t take classes because we thought we still knew everything.
We’re a stable family. My kids are well educated, happy, healthy, but the random colds two or three times a year, Ben and I are in love with each other. Going to the stores seeing baby clothes if we see an outfit that catches our eyes we’ll say to each other how adorable Katilette or Remington would look in it. It’s not just us but our girls do the same thing. The girls talk about their future baby sibling. They’ve been begging for years as well. Last year and the year before it was every single day they would beg to have a baby in the house. This house is so head over heals in love with our future baby we’ve been praying for. This year will be it because our family has been praying and striving to get to a healthy everything point to welcome another baby in our house.
I shouldn’t feel these feelings towards these people but I do because we’ve planned everything even if baby was not 100% healthy, which we pray they will be, everything is planned out, talked and mulled through. We don’t want to go to the doctors here but the one place is the only ones in this area that deliver and I have had two very quick labors so I kinda am cornered into having them. I know who I want for baby pictures and with the girls, which would be one of our friends.
The items we need would be diapers, wipes, glass bottles, my personal pads, see if we have all the hardware for the crib, car seat with two bases, and ummmm that’s pretty much all we need. We have tons of hats, maybe we need some socks I’d have to go through my closet in the baby bags, totes of clothes, boy clothes up to 9 months, washcloths, we have everything we would need. The girls would of course pick out an object for baby if they’d like and Liz would if she wanted to have a big sister shirt. We got one a few years ago for Liz that fits Macy so she’s set. Everything is set.
I even know what classes I’m going to take next fall while the girls are in school and hopefully I’m pregnant. I am planning on taking one maybe two classes next winter and push to get them done by the end of April when we expect baby would come. Which really shouldn’t be hard since again the girls will be gone all day, Ben would be doing his thing, and I would be able to have an hour or two at night. I can do it. It’s set in my head and when it’s set in my head there is usually little room for adjustments. PLANNED OUT!
Alright I think I’m done for tonight. It just obviously upsets me how egocentric people are when bringing a baby in the world.